The Muruku Murmurations

My mum and I were talking about my grandfather and so I got inspired to write about him. Its been five years since he passed away, but I remember everything like it was yesterday.  Disclaimer: Thatha is grandfather in Tamil and Amachi is grandmother in Tamil.  You would cycle to the shop,  Just to buy your grandchildren chocolates and lollipops,  I hear your voice like it was yesterday,  "Don't tell you amma ah", you would say. "See la your Amachi, never let me watch tv"  You'd complain as she changed the channel from WWE to her series, You would joke about your wife,  But oh, the way she made you smile. You'd hold my hand when I sat next to you, That made me feel special to you, Sometimes we'd play games, Sometimes I'd trace your hand and map out the veins. For years you lived with the pain, But I never once heard you complain, You fought till the end, To me you're a champ. I never got to say goodbye,  I try to get ...

This is a throwback to 2009, when my godfather relapsed yet again into cancer. This was the beginning of his final battle, and I wasn't very sure how to react or what to do. He meant the world to me, and in many ways he still does, and there will always be a void in my life where he should be. I miss you Dee, and I love you every day.  I cannot tell you I know how the feeling, Of enduring countless rounds of needles and chemo drugs, Your long tiresome battle just to keep on living, That cannot be cured by mere words and hugs... I cannot describe your every pain, As you struggle with every breath you take, Though my affections do not wane, Seeing you this way causes my heart to ache... I can only say so many words of encouragement, That soon sound empty to my own ears, As every result reveals you are not really responding to treatment, My faith and strength dissolves to fear that the time is near... I fight within myself to stay strong, More for you than for mysel...

I write this because I'm not good with goodbyes and speaking out what's on my mind. I run away from myself and what's going on around me. I'm so proud of all of you who graduated and left to fulfill your callings in life, all that you've done in the years that you were given. I am so blessed to have know you and be a part of your life. Congratulations to you and all the very best for your future. Fulfill your destiny, your calling in life, never regret and always let the joy of the Lord be your strength. New beginnings are ahead and I know that you are fully able to face it and succeed. Be of good courage and seek His kingdom, His presence, His face always. God is the same yesterday, today and forever, He is forever faithful and He'll always love you. I appreciate all the times you were there for me, all the things we've done together, gone through side-by-side, all the things you taught me, the times prayed for me and the support. You do have an impact i...

For years we have ventured our separate ways on separate platforms and sites to put our thoughts from our cluttered minds on to ' paper' . This is the place where we collaborate to speak / share / serenade the things that stir us up from the inside . Over the years, The Muruku Sisterhood had not only built a strong friendship but experienced a lot together. After going for a poetry reading, the inspiration awakened from inside my soul and triggered me to explore this project of self-expression. Not only am I thankful for good company and the undying support I get from them but I am honoured to be working on this with them. - SY The Muruku Sisterhood has come a long way from jotting down poems/stories/thoughts on random pieces of paper, so we decided that its time we published our musings on the internet. I'm not the most vocal person but sometimes people write the things they can't say, so I guess this is me opening up, and I'm glad I ge...

A sort of thank you to the two who push me to be the best I can be.  The Muruku Sisterhood,  From teenage years to adulthood,  One is fierce, one is feisty, And then there's me.  Through ups and downs,  Boys and ball gowns,  Laughter and tears,  And conquering fears.  This bond cannot be broken,  Nor can it be shaken,  I may not have many friends,  But these two are till the end.  So here's to the girls,  They're known as Swit Yen and Sheril,  They love me for who I am,  And push me to be the best I can.   - JN Written at 11.53am, 20/7/2015 Home, Kelana Jaya

I guess this one is pretty self explanatory. Sometimes people write the things they can't say. She said I wasn't right, I thought we were worth the fight, She said I wasn't right, So you just gave up the fight. What happened to happily ever after? What about the things you said after? You said you'd go through whatever weather, I remember you said always and forever. Its been a year, your words still resonate in my ear, I wish you never said all those things, cause you didn't mean a thing. You were the first, You said you'd never give up on us, Even after all you put me through, I still miss you. We could have been something amazing, But now we'll never know, I guess that's what makes it sting, Not anymore, I'm letting go. - JN Written at 7.00pm, 20th July 2015 Home, Kelana Jaya

When things got too hard, have you ever had that moment where you lost faith and wanted to give up? This is for when you have those moments. Take a breathe, read this and get back up on that saddle.  Hold on, things are going to get easier, Just take a little breather, Timid one you are, But trust me you’ll go far. Let your faith see you through, All you think you can’t do, No matter what, the sun is always shining, So look for that silver lining. Though it may not seem that way now,  But it will get better somehow, Most days it feels like you’re fighting a losing battle, But promise me you’ll always get back up on that saddle. - JN Written at 11.40pm 17th July 2015 Home, Kelana Jaya