You're Not Sorry.

You have so much faith in a person, enough faith to drop your guard and all of a sudden, just when you're starting to feel like maybe it was a good decision to drop your guard, they turn around and walk away. Leaving you with all those words unsaid. 

"I'm sorry" he said as he kissed her forehead,
"You're not sorry so don't say you're sorry" she said,
He looked at her and said, "I don't know what to do,"
She said, "It's ok. My heart and I, we'll make it through."

To get over it was going to take her years,
He'd unleashed her darkest fears,
The fears that she had kept tucked away,
She replayed those words in her head everyday.

"You need to conquer your fears"
He had always told her,
It had taken her so long to put down those walls,
And he just walked away like it meant nothing at all.

"I don't want to do this to you" he said,
But nothing she said could make him stay,
And as he turned to walk away,
All the words she wanted to say were left unsaid.

- JN
12.40pm, 5/11/2015 (Wednesday)
Home, Kelana Jaya
JN is the one who doesn't take chances, but she's working on that. She's powering through life, one day at a time. Even with all that life throws her, you'll always see her with a smile. She's a hopeless romantic, hopeless beyond repair. You may say she's a dreamer, but she's got her feet on the ground.

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